I had a very deep meditation on Friday, April 15th, that put me in such an incredibly profound state of being. At one point, the feeling of my body was nothing more than a mere memory. Where my consciousness actually resided at that point, I couldn’t tell you. But I do know I was far and away from the structure of my body. There was a sense of ecstasy; an intoxicating drink that my mind was floating within a dazzling sea of eternal existence; a primary ground just this side of Heaven for the soul still locked in its transitory earthly journey – not yet admitted to the infinite abode, but permitted to stand just centimeters from its gate. Being wrapped in this blanket of timeless emotion and immeasurable brilliance, it would not be without question that some kind of information, wisdom, or concept, might find its way into my “normal” earthbound cognizance. Indeed, the little sip of eternity from the cup of life made absolute sense when it flashed into my mind … It was pure harmony; a puzzle piece that fit perfectly with its partners on all corners.
The fireworks of wisdom that exploded inside my consciousness had to deal with the notion of your life being judged after death, and why the answer was always “You are forgiven, and you are loved.” It had nothing to do with the life review process – that sequence of events which puts you square in the middle of all your life’s choices and consequences. No, it wasn’t that at all. It seems, the life review process is an event for the individual personality’s benefit to come to terms, harmony, and understanding within the energetic makeup of his being – to make sense of the tributaries he traveled through the river of life; why the waterways wound about, rose, and then dived. Such revelations tie up life’s loose ends and answers many questions … It pulls the curtain to reveal the individual’s power, ramifications of choice, and hence responsibility he ultimately wielded in the course of earthly existence. Of course, this comes after the fact, after the life has been lived. It doesn’t address the whole point of living the life in the first place.
Yes, we are here on purpose. There was a point to being born into the physical universe on the day your bare bottom found air and the doctor spanked you. There was a reason why your life had a particular length to it – whether it be 20, 40, 80, or 100 years. There was a reason why you explored defined tributaries of life’s river – why you tromped upon one shore and not another. These were all potentials that were inherent in your spirit before you were born, and it was your intention to live them out for the expression of your greater consciousness (whether you wish to define that greater consciousness as the Oversoul, God, whatever).
When we start to look at life as the fulfillment of all potentials inherent within the makeup of existence, we begin to see why the structure of the universe – time and space – came into being. For the Great Soul to have complete expression – complete movement, total awareness, unbounded wisdom – to know all of this in its many permutations – all avenues of energetic experience and expression must be allowed to take form; to witness through and through on all levels these many layers – this becomes the drive and intention for life in the physical domain.
The impression I received from the quick glimpse afforded by my sip of ambrosia was awesome. The Great Soul, the Oversoul, whatever you wish to call it, sends portions of itself out into multiple time periods and domains. These time periods and domains are occurring simultaneously within the Oversoul, yet we break them down in order to fully enrapture and take in the components of each locality and bring them to the fullest expression and intimate awareness within our consciousness that we wish to experience. Each time and place can be considered a single locality, with energetic qualities and potentials wholly unique to its design. Our time period obviously is unique in comparison to ancient Greece, Middle Ages Europe, or even the American Revolution or Civil War. These localities afford unique opportunities for experience and expression which get fed to the Oversoul, so its energy (which is essentially your energy) lives out a course of existence in such localities … to sip from the intoxicating liquor each life offers. In doing so, the culmination resides in its wondrous joy of being All It Can Be, all at once, yet fulfilled through the lives of each “fragment self” spread out over time and space. It is such a rush, an amazing joy, to witness and feel the varied expressions of life happening concurrently for the Oversoul … It relishes all manner of experience.
From this admittedly higher and a bit perplexing view, our earthly concepts of morality seem to break down. Similar to how the laws of physics break down the deeper you go into the quantum realm, our notions of right and wrong turn fuzzy and lose coherence once we realize life is eternal, does not end, exists beyond time and space, and the goal of the Oversoul’s life is to have full breadth of experiences across all ranges of existence. And in some ways, for this to happen naturally and organically, the Oversoul grants free will to each “fragment” personality. (Or, one could say, each fragment personality is a mini-portion of the Oversoul individualized, complete with free will as its intended purpose of mission, drawing itself out of the Oversoul to breathe into a certain localized existence). In this way, experiential ranges can be explored with spontaneity, fullness of emotion, and expansion of thought. Therefore, one fragment may end up being an energetic expression and experience of a horrid murderer or other dastardly criminal/madman, while another may be the highest saint to bless earth’s grains of sand, all originating from the same source, for the sole point of being All Things Inherent in Potential. In either case, eternity, infinity, All That Is, is the Oversoul’s true “combined” nature, so these experiences fulfill the nature of its intentions – manifest all potentials in the theater of a “real-ized” universe.
It is sometimes hard to accept this, when we think of criminal elements. However, the fragment personality doesn’t end when the physical life is over. Because of the free will granted in projecting such energy into the different times and domains, the desire for spontaneity to bring the fulfillment of expression as the lifeblood of the Oversoul, the personality continues to evolve and move into other areas of experience after this existence. This again affords the Great Oversoul its complete act of expression. We would be remiss to assume that life only exists in two different locations – earthly physical domain and that of spirit. There may be, in fact, other domains with experiential structures we cannot even imagine, and the Oversoul delights in allowing its many fragments (which it may not even perceive as fragments, but simply the nature of its life) all the possibilities of expression and experience available. Here, we have a “completed timeline” of a “fragment” madman/criminal coming to terms with his energetic imbalances and later becoming the saint through the multiple domains he chooses to travel through. The sense of moral righteousness, productivity, all the things we hold as internal personal rules and conventions (and so highly regarded, I might add) are just other forms of varietal expression and experience to the Higher Great Oversoul, fulfilling its mission of being All That Is. It judges them not on “this being good, that being bad” but rather “the fullest expression and experience of my possibilities.”
Because the fragment personality is simply doing its intended purpose for being alive in this particular time and this particular place – to provide experience and expression in concert with the unique variables co-existent in locale (and partake and shape them), to be life itself in some part of its various form – this is why the only afterlife judgment one truly receives is “you are forgiven … and you are loved.” The Oversoul is not made of one life, but the “spreading out” of many through the prism of time and space, so the judgment of one would serve no purpose – it holds no water for it cannot address the bigger picture of the whole – and who would do the judging?
There has never been (and never can be) the apocalyptic judgment that we have been so taught throughout the ages, for it goes against the very grain of why life is here in the first place. We came to life on purpose and for a reason: to live life in its unique variations. What is life? It is the release of thoughts, emotions, and mental attitudes, manifesting experiences across space and time for energetic expression. All of these are affected by various matrixes put in place by all consciousness: the value systems, beliefs, etc. unique to the moments of history, time and place.
If the course of history has taught us anything, it is that the judgments for or against life are transitory. Concepts of good and evil change and evolve as we change and evolve. What is acceptable one day becomes unacceptable the next. And these differences are but a single layer in the makeup of expression and existence. This does not mean it is okay to go out and kill your neighbor, for we have all agreed such an act is horrendous; that judgment produces a framework which informs and guides the nature of choices, and hence expression and experience along the river of life in this particular time and space framework. That is our designation as fragment personalities that we choose to adhere to.
To the eternal Oversoul – free from earthly time and space – it makes no call of right or wrong, but only love and thanks for ultimate expression in the framework of the domain. It does not recognize morality or immorality … only freedom to express and be All It Can Be (life is eternal, never ending, and a full expression of energetic possibilities, utilizing the domain matrix for inspiration, so how could anything be wrong?). That freedom, that bursting of choice manifesting into all possibilities through the prism of time and space is the whole point to existence. So do not fear a negative judgment for doing only what the point of existence was to begin with: live life in whatever way you choose, for in the end, that was the only directive to begin with. That was the purpose for exiting the womb in the doctor’s office. That was the purpose for traveling certain inlets along the river, and why certain “fragments” left the physical domain at certain times. It’s all good. It’s all life. It’s all potentials being experienced purposefully.
It’s the whole reason you burst out into existence in the first place.
I have written similar posts like this in the past, but coming out of meditation and being struck with the concept and an attached “feeling” was quite an interesting moment.
In considering this epiphany, I was struck with a couple thoughts.
1) You cannot judge another person’s life, for it is a holy expression. We have been told this for centuries, though not quite grasping or understanding the nuances of why. Yet this insight fills out some of those details. Yes, we may think the homeless man or drunken bum doesn’t have much of a life, or that some other person is “wrong” or “bad” based on any number of labels, concepts, or inferences we concoct. But that is all within the context of our own personal and agreed-upon societal value system. I am reminded of when my wife’s cousin interviewed a homeless man sleeping on a park bench for a college project. The homeless guy said “I love my life. I have no boss. I don’t have to answer to anybody but myself. I can go anywhere I want, whenever I want. I don’t punch a clock and can go anywhere in the city so long as I got a pair of shoes.” He was living his life in the expression he wished! And he was quite conscious of it, too!
2) The notion of “forgiveness” is for our personal benefit – we were never in need of forgiveness in the first place. Since we are living the directive of life, it is to the value system we cling and the psychological framework we adopt which produces the “I must be forgiven” desire. Therefore, it is by this perception that those who meet us upon entering the next world grant us the gift “you are forgiven.” Ultimately, we were never in any peril to begin with. Our only prison has been the one we built in our own minds from what we’ve accepted inside the matrix of this physical earth-life domain.